Another personal thought:
I’m left speechless when even I knew what I had been through..
But when it came down to it showing through n’ through,
my body, my mind, my fears.. The pain, the memories, the tears;
The things I held back for years,
I thought that if you knew too
you would understand the demons hidden deep inside my barren ocean blue.
But when it came time to face me,
me with all of the crazy,
I thought that just maybe….. you could be there for me too.
But maybe that was too much for me to even ask of you..
Hell, it feels like too much to ask of myself.
This burden is weighed down, tied to my head and shoulders.
None the less we must do what we must to better thyself,
I will continue to carry this weight and break these boulders,
because how can I expect you to love me if I can’t love myself?
Well guess what, I do love myself.
I just thought it wasn’t so impossible to be loved by someone else.