Only time knows

Sometimes humans can’t help but to feel so alive,
so alive that they strive until they reach a never-ending archive.
To do so is incredible, if only this feeling was edible
I’d settle right away and keep this positivity within my mental.

Then comes a downfall, everyone hits one.
That feeling of emptiness towards life as if there is none.
Only time knows how things will twist and unfold,
there’s nothing we as humans can do other than expand knowledge and grow old. 

There really is no pleasing this world.

I’m not trying to please the world,
I’m trying to please myself by making a difference. 

My head is quiet for once,

Feels like the world is spinning outta control.
I begin to reflect on the things I do and don’t know,
thinking to myself; why am I always so hard on myself?
Pondering whether or not it is bad or good for my health. 
I dream of excelling in everything that I do, piling my wealth 
to laugh at the face in the mirror for everything that I’ve been through. 
I’ll tell that reflection that I’m stronger than you think,
I won’t stop or slow down until I’m at the head of that brink.
I am forever in debt to all of my faults, if it weren’t for them I could have never of taught myself to decipher the differences in hope and faith.
I realized a while back that life’s just a drawn out wait.
But you don’t have to sit there and learn to be patient,
instead you could move forward and gain the ancient knowledge and wisdom that kept the nobodies waiting. Waiting for that better tomorrow
or a seed embedded in the womb of your bloodlines future
it seems to be a narrow path but that doesn’t mean you should dwell in your sorrows. Fuck what people say or think or expect you to be,
because at the end of the day your mind will still be screaming “fuck anyone who ever judged me!” 

Yeah so what if I’m a half Asian, Mexican mixed girl; it still doesn’t mean I’ll pose and take half naked pictures to become internet famous to the world. Truthfully,

Instead I speak with a voice, created by yours truly. 
With opinions and knowledge to give and accept.
I believe everything to have some sort of beauty to it,
especially with a mind of their own, girls with self-respect.
Proving nothing but the fact that they’re grown. 
Sorry I’m just rambling a rant while sittin’ high on my throne.
I know it’s pointless and it’s nothing important enough to be known.
But at least I can say I took action for my thoughts and spoke the things that can’t be shown.

I’ve spent too much time thinking I’m not good enough…

So many countless, timeless nights and days spent wondering why I wasn’t good enough for you.

But in reality; maybe you just weren’t feelin’ me.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.